Life.Planted.

"In the heart of a seed, Buried deep, so deep, A tiny plant Lay fast asleep. "Wake," said the sunshine. and creep to the light.  "Wake," said the voice of the raindrops bright. The little plant heard And it rose to see What the wonderful Outside world may be." On Friday my mom, the kids and I took an hour drive to our favorite greenhouse.  I was really craving being surrounded in beautiful greenery and life!  I got two new plants to add to our home. (Hopefully I don't kill them)

The weekend was a busy one and flew by to quickly. It's always nice having dad home to have family time. Saturday afternoon into most the evening we went to a much anticipated Ikea trip! I've been working on the play room since Sunday- it's turning out really nice and I can't wait for the finished look! Next is the living room! After two years of living here I'm finally getting around to start styling our home the way I want. Every morning I wake up and hear the birds chirping and I wish it was closer to spring instead of the dead of winter. We’ve been having a pretty mild winter so far though, which is so nice!! We’ve been able to get outside with family and friends. Being cooped up inside can really dull your motivation in the middle of those dark winter days, especially now with COVID. We have to watch out for each other and keep our mental health in check and make sure we have someone to pick us up, lean on and make sure we are alright in those hard times, even

Saturday.  I got out of bed late.  9am. The hard rain pelting on the roof. The sound of the wind blowing.  The dark sky, the sun not wanting to rise either. Feeling myself on a spiral downhill.  Can't get out of my own mind.  Things that get in the way of happiness.  Things I shouldn't worry about. Things that are not mine to worry about. But I do. Because I'm human, a decent human. Because I'm a good mother- no, a great mother.  The downfall of feeling everything, Is feeling EVERYTHING. 

Slow and steady. Slow tired morning eyes, waking up from working all weekend, and a long overdo Starbucks car date with best friends. Resting my body and mind. A 7 year old taking up most of the bed with his favorite stuffed animal. The sunrise slowly creeping in through the bedroom windows.  Casting the shadows out, As the world comes alive. A day full of new lessons and short stories.  A day full of coffee.  A day falling back into the swing of things.  A day full of chores. A day full of siblings playing, fighting, laughing. Long, repetitive, lingering, cold winter days. With the early sunset. Days ending early curled up in bed covered in warm thick blankets.  Resetting our souls.  Another day of thanks for my life, my home, and my family.

Today we flip the page on 2020.  It’s a brand new day, of a brand new month, of a brand new year. A blank slate. A day the world has never seen before. The sun has been up for hours, casting light to a rose colored sky. The euphoria is still lingering from celebration into the new year with the ones we love.  I think we can all agree that 2020 was terrible in so many ways, it broke and tattered lives, some more than others. It was challenging and heartbreaking. It was a chaotic year that tested so many people to their limit, it left a lasting effect of grief on some. A lot of us have been waiting for this fresh start, to say goodbye to 2020 for good, but there was always, always something to be thankful for. It brought people together. It let us slow down and really live. 2020 taught us to be patient and that you can make your own fun out of nothing. 2020 united us and made us stand together. It’s hard to process the last year, but within all the brokenness, there was also good. We are