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Christmas Magic

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  “Christmas magic  is silent  You don’t hear it You feel it You know it  You believe it.”  ~ Kevin Alan Milne  Having children on Christmas is one of the greatest gifts the world can give. The light in their eyes Christmas morning is more priceless than anything in the world. 

Happy Birthday Kieran Benjamin!

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Singing Happy Birthday to this guy today!!!  Eleven trips around the sun!  Helping to raise you has been such a blessing from the beginning. I’d go through all the hard days over again as long as I still got to call you my son. ❤️ (When you're not fighting) I love how much you love your siblings, your best friends. You give your whole being into loving them and the rest of your family and making everyone around you proud. You have enriched so many lives. Including mine. You are full of goodness and light and oh so smart! You are funny, sensitive, kind, so loving and always along for the ride even if you don’t know the destination.  Loving you has showed me how to be patient and stronger, that open and honest communication is important, how to truly make sacrifices and to let go of the things I can’t change that can just be damaging and weight heavy on everyone’s heart.  I cannot wait to see the man you grow up to be one day and I’m so glad I get to have a huge role into helping tha

November Meddling

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It’s been awhile since I’ve collected my thoughts, memories, my heart here.  We are all well!! So well. We are good and healthy and happy!  We celebrated thanksgiving with our families after the yearly thanksgiving HS rivalry football game. Seems like just yesterday we were anticipating the slow arrival of summer, but here we are with summer days past too quickly turning into fall and now almost winter.  We held onto the last golden rays of summer sun like the trees now hang onto those last color changing leaves that haven’t let go. The sunlight disappears earlier and earlier from the sky.  We dreaded the first day of school. We dreaded the first day of fall.  I wasn’t ready to exchange my sun-kissed skin for sweaters, shoving my feet into covered shoes. So many beautiful memories made. Summer has this sense of freedom and carefreeness you can’t explain. Loud, fast memories flying by like a carousel ride. Now, time starts to slow down and grow quieter. Back to the rhythm and structure.

Camden is nine!!

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Nine! Am I counting right?! I knew I shouldn’t have blinked, not even for a second. Today this boy turns nine!! The boy who stole my heart and ran all the way to the end zone with it. This year seems so important and big, the year before double digits. My heart swells. Halfway to adulthood. It’s such a pleasure to watch you grow the last 9 years. From taking your very first breath into this world, to walking, but more like running because I don’t think you’ve ever walked a day in your life. From riding your first bike, to making your first touchdown. I couldn’t be any prouder to be your mama! This year, I hope I can slow down and appreciate the miracle of you just a little longer and live more in the moments I have left. Screaming Happy Ninth Birthday to you Camden Joseph!!! Loving you has always came easy 💙 “Little boys can test your patience, run you ragged and make you want to pull your hair out. But they will also melt your heart with just one look and make you wonder how you eve

Father’s Day 2022

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“Dads are most ordinary men turned by love into heroes, adventures, storytellers and singers of song.” -Pam Brown  Happy Father’s Day to this guy!  Life is better because of you.  Thank you for taking on this crazy adventure of parenthood with me. You put me at peace knowing I’m not alone in this crazy life.  These kids will never need, (but always want) and never know what it feels like to not be loved, supported and cheered for.  Today was your day, but just like everyday, you still showed up for everyone else. We love you to the furthest moon and back again. Xoxo

Dear Daughter

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Dear Daughter,   Time is such a thief.  Yesterday you were 12. Today you turn 13.  Saying goodbye to your childhood. Officially becoming a teenager. Undeniably no longer a little kid, as much as I want to hold onto your childhood.  You traded in your doll brushes for make up brushes. Dresses and bows for ripped jeans and scrunches.  Sparkly slip on shoes for tie up vans and converse. Coloring books for a cell phone.  I knew this day was coming. I knew the past year it was coming.  I knew the past month and week, that this day would come and I would never be able to stop it. But here we are and it still feels crazy to me. Weren't I just swaddling you up so gently, holding you close in my arms and bringing you home? My heart full of a love I've never experienced before.  I'd take in all your beautiful little features then, now I take in all your beautiful grown features.  My first born.  The one who made me a mama.  The one who taught me how to love unconditionally. The one w

Little More

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I wish I had not been in such a hurry to get on to the next thing: dinner. bath. books. bed. I wish I had treasured the doing a little more and the getting it done a little less.  ~Anna Quindlen 

May Showers

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 “We all have slow days, off days, days we feel tired or uninspired, but they are nothing to concern yourself with. Like the ocean, the stillness is just another of our natural states. Soon, the winds will return, the waves will rise, and your imagination will flow freely again.”  ~beau taplin    The last week has been full of unmotivation and uninspired. The slow and off days. The cold, heavy, windy days of spring. But yet, still a busy week full of sports and events. Spring is slow and cold this year and refusing to speed up faster than she wants to. If the cold wind isn’t blowing, it’s raining. With warm sunny days far and few in between. The beginning of long, hot summer days nowhere in sight.  But the grass is growing tall as it should and buds burst on the tree limbs as they were meant to. Birds sing their song and I soak up the sunshine on the porch with a book in hand when I get the chance to. The days still go on. We occupy ourselves with play rehearsal, lacrosse practice and

Slow

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Spring is officially 3 more days away!!  The sun is shining and warm. Previews of life crawling out from the thawed ground. The last few weeks I feel like my energy has been sucked out of me and used to sprout new life from the earth.  I always feel this change of season the most. Maybe because it feels like the dark we've been living in is now illuminated by light. My mind and body is thawing out along with our part of the Earth.  My eyes and chin rise up toward the light instead of fall into darkness.  And the days burn brighter longer. And things have slowed down.... and I don't worry to much about the things that don't get done because they do get done eventually, just at a slower pace. (Like the playroom I've been painting for three weeks now lol)  Soon enough the pace will pick back up. lacrosse. boat season. sailing. plays. summer. football. It's all right around the corner.  We've also slowed down because our little family is all on the mend from a cold